Do you ever have one of those days where you wake up and nothing in your life is going right? I just seriously wish to die right now… there’s so many things wrong! The guy who I like happens to be my best friend and I can’t distance myself from him because if I did then he’d know something was wrong but then again it’s hard because with each day each moment each second we spend together I fall deeper and deeper for him… but he’s bisexual which might mean gay?? Not only that but I moved from a place where all my friends were and now I’m alone I always find myself as the “outcast” in groups, in classes i often sit alone because i feel like no one likes me or even wants to get to know me… i know people but I can’t force myself to EVER talk about my feelings because I don’t want to be that one friend who has all the issues… Usually i just fake a smile and get over it but today i…i just can’t everything is becoming too much for me >.< 

I just really wish I had a friend to talk to … someone to hug me and tell me everything is going to be okay… someone who was SINCERELY there for me not just because I have depression but because they genuinely cared for me and my well being .. is that too much to ask for?